Navigating Parenthood: Emotions

Monday, February 27, 2012

Emotions

TTC is such an emotional roller coaster.. We are back in the game and I have mixed feelings about it. We bought a new baby dad and feel really good about him. In fact our clinic let's us keep 3 vials in house for 6 months. So, while I hope this go around will be a one hit wonder we did buy 3.

So my period after the miscarriage was right on time and we went back to the clinic to get clomid which is what I took the last time I got pregnant. So on day 3 of my cycle I started it and tomorrow is 14 days. I've been using OPK's but no positives yet. I am thinking Wednesday or Thursday will be our day.

I am having mixed feelings about it... excited and sad. Sad because we should not be at this point already. I should be 4 months pregnant and getting ready to find out the sex of the baby. Excited that I still get to do this and try again. I've decided I need to be EXCITED and ready to make this happen. I know good things are in our future.

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LexMarch 7, 2012 at 8:30 AM
I'm happy I found your blog and thanks for commenting on mine. So sorry to hear about your m/c but I know that you're right - good things ARE in your future. Good luck!
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TTC Journey

March 2011 - HGC Test... tubes are clear
July 2011 - Blood work... under active thryoid
September 2011 - IUI #1
September 2011 - BFN #1
October 2011 - Accupunture and IUI #2
October 20, 2011 - BFN #2
October 21, 2011 - Aunt Flo Arrives
October 24, 2011 - On Clomid for next try
November 4, 2011 - IUI#3
November 19, 2011 - Aunt Flo is late
November 20, 2011 - BFP using HPT
November 21, 2011 - Blood work confirmed pregnancy.
December 5, 2011 - Ultrasound #1
December 23, 2011 - Ultrasound #2
January 9, 2012 - Ultrasound #3 confirmed baby stopped growing = miscarriage.
January 12, 2012 - D&C
March 1, 2012 - IUI #4 with 50mg Clomid
Ultrasound only showed one mature follicle at 17. Should have waited but went ahead with IUI.
March 14, 2012 - Took HPT = BFN
March 16, 2012 - Aunt Flo arrived
March 19, 2012 - Started clomid for try #5
March 30, 2012 - Accupunture appointment and IUI #5
April 13, 2012 - Aunt Flo arrived - BFN!!
April 17, 2012 - Start clomid for try #6
April 26, 2012 - Positive OPK. Ultrasound showed linning at 11 and two follicles - one at 24 and one at 18
April 27, 2012 - IUI #6 (Pre and Post Acupuncture)
April 28, 2012 - BIRTHDAY - BIG 3-0
May 11, 2012 - Took HPT = BFN
May 12, 2012 - Aunt Flo arrived
May 16, 2012 - Start clomid for try #7 and ordered 2 vials of our donor
May 26, 2012 - IUI #7
June 8, 2012 - Took HPT = BFN
June 9, 2012 - Aunt Flo arrived
June 13, 2012 - Started clomid for try #8
June 22, 2012 - Checked lining and follicles - lining was at an 8 and two follicles... I think they were 18 and 20.
June 22, 2012 - Positive OPK and trigger shot
June 23, 2012 - IUI #8
July 5, 2012 - 6 month check up of thyroid...TSH is up (4.41)
July 8, 2012 - Took HPT = BFN. Aunt Flo arrived later in the afternoon.
July 9, 2012 - Checked with Doctor why TSH went up from Jan at .67 t0 4.41. She said it could be a numbr of reasons. Decided to re-do blood work.
July 12, 2012 - TSH is at 1.77 not a 4.41. Not sure why we are not getting pregnant.
On a break.
September 18, 2012 - IUI #9 with clomid
October 2012 - BFN #9. Discovered cyst and have to wait this cycle out.
November 2012 - Cyst is still present. NP puts me on birthh control.
November 29, 2012 - Cyst is gone and we are ready to try again. Take clomid. Also discuss possible double IUI.
December 11, 2012 - IUI #10
December 12, 2012 - IUI #11
December 25, 2012 - Merry Christmas to me... Aunt Flo arrived!
January 10, 2013 - IVF Consultation