Navigating Parenthood: Down

Thursday, February 14, 2013

Down

While I am having a great valentines day... I am feeling a little down. This weekend I am going to a baby shower and several people have been posting their expecting news. I try not to be jealous I just feel envious I guess. I wish everyone expecting all the best but a part of me wishes it was me. I know our time will come... I just need to learn patience !

Sorry for the rambling!!

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MrsTFebruary 14, 2013 at 8:26 PM
Its okay to be jealous and feel envious. You're not the only one. Before we got pregnant with Noah I couldn't stand to be around anyone who was expecting...I was angry with everyone. But I promise that your time WILL come. Happy Valentines Day! Sending you best wishes!
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More Than WordsFebruary 14, 2013 at 9:45 PM
I agree. Don't be hard on yourself for having those feelings because they're totally normal. I had to completely stop getting on Facebook and other social networks when we weren't getting pregnant. It was too hard reading the many, MANY bump updates so I know how you feel. Keep the hope alive because it will happen!
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TTC Journey

March 2011 - HGC Test... tubes are clear
July 2011 - Blood work... under active thryoid
September 2011 - IUI #1
September 2011 - BFN #1
October 2011 - Accupunture and IUI #2
October 20, 2011 - BFN #2
October 21, 2011 - Aunt Flo Arrives
October 24, 2011 - On Clomid for next try
November 4, 2011 - IUI#3
November 19, 2011 - Aunt Flo is late
November 20, 2011 - BFP using HPT
November 21, 2011 - Blood work confirmed pregnancy.
December 5, 2011 - Ultrasound #1
December 23, 2011 - Ultrasound #2
January 9, 2012 - Ultrasound #3 confirmed baby stopped growing = miscarriage.
January 12, 2012 - D&C
March 1, 2012 - IUI #4 with 50mg Clomid
Ultrasound only showed one mature follicle at 17. Should have waited but went ahead with IUI.
March 14, 2012 - Took HPT = BFN
March 16, 2012 - Aunt Flo arrived
March 19, 2012 - Started clomid for try #5
March 30, 2012 - Accupunture appointment and IUI #5
April 13, 2012 - Aunt Flo arrived - BFN!!
April 17, 2012 - Start clomid for try #6
April 26, 2012 - Positive OPK. Ultrasound showed linning at 11 and two follicles - one at 24 and one at 18
April 27, 2012 - IUI #6 (Pre and Post Acupuncture)
April 28, 2012 - BIRTHDAY - BIG 3-0
May 11, 2012 - Took HPT = BFN
May 12, 2012 - Aunt Flo arrived
May 16, 2012 - Start clomid for try #7 and ordered 2 vials of our donor
May 26, 2012 - IUI #7
June 8, 2012 - Took HPT = BFN
June 9, 2012 - Aunt Flo arrived
June 13, 2012 - Started clomid for try #8
June 22, 2012 - Checked lining and follicles - lining was at an 8 and two follicles... I think they were 18 and 20.
June 22, 2012 - Positive OPK and trigger shot
June 23, 2012 - IUI #8
July 5, 2012 - 6 month check up of thyroid...TSH is up (4.41)
July 8, 2012 - Took HPT = BFN. Aunt Flo arrived later in the afternoon.
July 9, 2012 - Checked with Doctor why TSH went up from Jan at .67 t0 4.41. She said it could be a numbr of reasons. Decided to re-do blood work.
July 12, 2012 - TSH is at 1.77 not a 4.41. Not sure why we are not getting pregnant.
On a break.
September 18, 2012 - IUI #9 with clomid
October 2012 - BFN #9. Discovered cyst and have to wait this cycle out.
November 2012 - Cyst is still present. NP puts me on birthh control.
November 29, 2012 - Cyst is gone and we are ready to try again. Take clomid. Also discuss possible double IUI.
December 11, 2012 - IUI #10
December 12, 2012 - IUI #11
December 25, 2012 - Merry Christmas to me... Aunt Flo arrived!
January 10, 2013 - IVF Consultation