T Minus One Week

We are one week away from our possible egg retrieval. Today was the start of the constant monitoring. The ultrasound this morning revealed 12 follicles on the right and 8 or 9 on the left with my lining measuring in at 7.9. Right now the biggest follicle is about a 10 with all the others measuring in between 7 and 9. The doctor said this was exactly what he expected and I go back in on Saturday, Monday and Tuesday!

The shots have not been too bad. The wifey is great at giving them and I've really enjoyed the last 3 days because she's been able to give me my morning shot of follistim, but tomorrow I have to go back to giving it myself :(. I am doing 2 vials of menopour at night and 5 ml of lupron and so far only two bruises on the belly. I am more scared for the progesterone.

I am still really nervous about this whole process and pray that we get lots of good embryos!!!

It must be the medications...

Because I have been feeling very down and emotional. This whole process still boggles my mind and has me mad at my body. Why couldn't my body get pregnant without so much medical intervention and will I even get pregnant? I keep trying to push these thoughts out but they keep plaguing my mind.

This Sunday I start the stim meds. Right now I am only doing 10ml of Lupron and I feel depressed and a little hormonally unbalanced... I am scared for how I am going to feel next week. Thank goodness I had an interview for a management job this week who knows if next week I will be able to keep my composure and not break out in tears.

Wishing everyone out in blog land on this crazy adventure sticky vibes and baby dust!!!

No turning back...

First let me apologize for the play by play, but years from now I want to look back and remember this process. I subscribe to a feed on FB about positivity and this morning I was greeted with "Don't let anyone stop you from pursuing what you want to achieve. Life will test you to see how serious you are about pursuing a particular path. Sooner or later, you may face negative feedback. If you do, remember not to let anyone crush your dream."

Luckily for me, I not really faced in one being negative on my dream. I have surrounded myself with people who accept and support me. But this quote really did remind me to not give up on what I want. I want a baby more than anything!! I feel like life has tested me and sometimes I get mad that my body did not keep my first pregnancy nor could it do what it needed to do in later tries. But then I am so thankful and humble that we get to try IVF!! Some do not get to this point and I feel blessed to have the resources (a credit card) to try this!! I know my dream will come true; I just need to remain patient and there's no turning back now, the medicine has been ordered. The total cost of the meds came out to $2150. Cheaper than expected so that was really nice!!!

I am so excited and anxious. This month seems like it is going so slow. I can't wait to be knee deep in this process and closer to a positive pregnancy stick.

Speaking of which, I am not sure if I will test on a stick or wait till our beta. I am sure Wifey will want to wait, but I know I will want to know and could become obsessed with the sticks.

It seems surreal to be at this point!!! April please hurry up and get here.

THE CALENDAR

Yesterday afternoon I got the email from the doctor's office with the calendar...

Looks like our egg retrival wil be the 4th of April with transfer on the 9th. It all seems so far away but I know it will come quick. One of my concerns is will my period start on the 18th like they predict???

This is for real...

Yesterday, I had the water sonogram and everything looked good!!

I got a call from the nurse this morning and she has my calendar she is sending to me. My meds are being delivered on Monday and next Wednesday we go in for an ultrasound and injection training. Plus we have to pay for this... hello large sum of money going on credit card.

I can't believe this is all happening, by April we will be pregnant!!! I choose to only see the positive in this situation and that is a + pregnancy!!

So excited and so scared!