Happy Birthday!!!

Best birthday present EVER!!! My HCG is at 1800!!!! One hurdle down, the next will be May 10th - ultrasound! I am praying do hard we see a heartbeat. But for now... I am on cloud nine and truly believe this year is going to be amazing!

Feelings

I am feeling very emotional today... feel like I could cry at a drop of a hat. I hopes it all my crazy hormones helping this baby and not just the progesterone or estradol I am taking.

Yesterday I felt pregnant but was doubting my body, so during lunch I walked to the dollar store to get a couple of tests. They were completely out!!! As much as I question my faith... some force out there was telling me to trust the previous tests and enjoy the moment. So I am not going to test and will wait till Monday. It's been really hard and I worry about my low number; but I have to have faith. This little one is going to stick around; maybe I am just one of those that implants late and has low numbers. O just get worried when others have numbers way bigger than mine, so please keep your fingers crossed for us!

In other news... cramping has been more intense today and my boobs feel tingly.

Congratulations to all those getting positives... So awesome!!!

Waiting Game

First, let me say thank you for the sweet comments on my last post! I am so appreciative of all of you that read my blog and leave encouraging comments!

I still can't believe I am pregnant!!! I am excited but yet I am trying to guard my heart. After last time I know to keep it guarded! Everything is a waiting and worrying game. Right now I can't wait to hear the heartbeat!!

The cramping has almost gone away; occasionally I get a twinge and some back pain. Other symptoms include feeling bloated and the need to use the restroom but then only a little comes out. My boobs feel a little fuller and I feel "wet" down south (sorry too much TMI). I have had a couple times where I felt nauseas but nothing significant. I almost want morning sickness to help ease my mind that the little embryo is in there and growing.

On another note, I started my new job on Friday and we had a training in Southern California this weekend. My new boss does not know. When we got to the airport I forgot about the X-ray machines and was nervous about going through so I opted for the pat down. My boss looked at me a little crazy but did not say anything. I am not looking forward to it again tonight. I also had to give myself my own progesterone shots which was difficult but I did it!! I keep questioning the location I did them in; thinking did I do them right and where I should, is the baby getting what it needs.

The waiting game continues to the next blood draw on the 29th.

Results

Today was our second beta and it came back at 25. So we are considered pregnant. I feel really calm and positive about this pregnancy, but I am still a little nervous. I have another blood test on April 29th (day after my birthday) and then on May 10th we have an ultrasound. Please continue to send good vibes this way that this little baby continues to stick and grow appropriately!!!

Forgot, our nurse said another patient had a hcg level of 10 at the beginning and is having a healthy pregnancy.

First Beta

The first beta is in and I am not sure what to think. The clinic says I am pregnant but the hcg is only 11. Please pray it goes up by Friday. I want this baby so badly!!!

One more day...

Tomorrow is the first blood draw and quite frankly I am scared!!! I want this so bad. I've not had any definite symptoms that I think indicate whether or not I am pregnant. My boobs are a little sore, but it could be the progesterone shots. I had cramping that was pretty intense till yesterday. Today the cramping is not that bad. I constantly feel like my period started and I rush to the bathroom and nothing. I also feel the need to pee more but my mind could be playing tricks on me.

Well in less than 24 hours I will be waiting. The clinic does not call with the first numbers; but I am going to try and call them and get the numbers.

Please send us all your baby dust...

Four

So we are four days past the 5 day transfer, four embryos were frozen and we have four days to go till our first blood test.

Nothing really exciting to report, my boobs are not sore and I don't think they've gotten bigger. I have lots a period like cramping for the past 2 days and sometimes it's intense. I hope it's the little embryo in bedding itself for a cozy 9 months. I am not sure if I will break down and test before Wednesday... probably not. To be honest I am scared of those sticks; I've experienced to much pain with them, so I will wait for the doctor report... I think :)

In other news, the clinic called Friday and four of our embryos made it to freeze. It's kinda crazy to think that my potential children are frozen.

Off to enjoy this last day of the weekend. Baby dust to all!!!

Embryo Transfer

Today was the embryo transfer. We transferred one grade 2BB blastocyst. We only had the one reach blastocyst on day 5 so we did not qualify for the program that would have covered future FET if this one does not result in pregnancy. It was devastating; in fact tears rolled down my checks the entire time during the transfer. They wanted us to transfer 2 but wifey and I already discussed that we do not want twins and I declined... that was hard too.

Our embryos will continue to grow and we could get some good ones to freeze but we will have to pay for it.

Good news is I got a new job where I work and its a promotion.

Well... I am in bed rest till Friday and we have our first blood draw a week from tomorrow.

Please send us baby dust and sticky vibes... it's been such a long and emotional road and I am definitely feeling defeated.

First Report

I just got the call and it's pretty good! 35 eggs were retrieved yesterday; of them 25 were fertilized and 20 are growing!!!

I hope we get lots a great embryos!!

Eggs, eggs and more eggs!!

I am at home recovering... this morning they retrieved 32 eggs. Not all of them will make it to fertilization but I have high hopes!!!

I am feeling okay. Did not realize how painful this would be; but its all worth it!!! I am drinking lots of water and trying to eat lots of protein.

Looking forward to tomorrow's report!!!

Eggs

Tomorrow is the egg retrieval. I am so ready to not feel bloated. We have some really good follicles measuring between 18 and 21. Last I heard there were about 9 or 10 on the right and 9 on the left. I am excited to see how many we get and then how many fertilize!!

We go in bright and early at 6:30 am and the procedure should happen around 7. Please keep your fingers crossed for us that we get good eggs and lots fertilize. We need 3 good quality eggs to make it to 5 days or we will not qualify for the one embryo transfer program and I need that as my "insurance".

Friday the embryologist will call with her report and I know I will be anxious for it. I was going to take Friday off but I have so much work on my desk I have to go in. Maybe work will take my mind off the impending transfer!