Closer

Well my period decided to be a few days late this month, but it finally came and I start birth control pills tonight. I go in for the water sonogram on Monday and then I should get my calendar. Everything is moving so fast... I am excited and scared all at the same time! The retrieval will be some time during the first week of April and then five days later they will put one strong embryo back in me!!

I can't believe this is all happening . Fear, joy, nervousness and excitement are over taking me! I want so badly for this to work and to be able to announce we are pregnant!!

As we continue on this journey I will keep you posted!

Down

While I am having a great valentines day... I am feeling a little down. This weekend I am going to a baby shower and several people have been posting their expecting news. I try not to be jealous I just feel envious I guess. I wish everyone expecting all the best but a part of me wishes it was me. I know our time will come... I just need to learn patience !

Sorry for the rambling!!

Forgot to share...

Last month the wife and I went dog sledding and we had a lot of fun together. This is one of my favorite photos. Regardless of what happens on this road... I am so glad I am traveling it with my wifey!!!

C is for Crocodile

Yesterday, the world lost a sweet little boy... Caemon (http://cisforcrocodile.wordpress.com/). Wifey and I have been following his fight via facebook and his blog from the beginning. While I do not know this family, I have been following them for some time - 2 years ago when I was searching how to start the process I came across their blog http://reproducinggenius.wordpress.com/ and have sporadically followed their lives raising their Boy Genius. They are awesome moms who helped their son fight six months of a rare form of Leukemia.

My heart broke yesterday when Wifey told me about the facebook post. I truly believed he would be a miracle. I can not imagine the pain and grief his moms are feeling. I pray for them during this difficult time that they find refuge in each other and strength from their families.

Please visit the facebook page or blog... read about this AMAZING little boy. Should you be moved to please leave a note of condolence for his moms.

Facebook page for Caring for Caemon: http://www.facebook.com/#!/CaringforCaemon?fref=ts
Blog set up after the cancer diagnosis: http://cisforcrocodile.wordpress.com/

Caemon... you have touched my life in ways you will never know! You inspired me to give blood and become a bone marrow donor. You were here only a short time but touched so many lives!!! Angels walk amongst us on earth and then watch over us in heaven. Caemon, I know your watching over your moms.

The Yellow Brick Road to IVF

Wifey and I decided we are going to try IVF. It's very scary knowing we have one shot at this! But we are going for it in hopes that more than one embryo will make it to the blastocyst stage (I think that's what you call it) so we can freeze them for later attempts.

We meet with the nurse to go over all the paperwork last week. She was sooo nice and I am lucky I have most of the pre blood work and other tests done. So right now we wait for my next period... towards the end of February. At that point I will go on birth control till my next period in March. Retrieval will be early April.

This all very scary but exciting. April is my birthday and I pray I get the present I want!!!

CREATE

Happy New Year!!! It's a fresh start on a brand new year... with brand new possibilities!!! I am looking forward to this year!!! Ali Edwards does a thing called one little word and its a word to focus on, mediate on, and reflect upon as you go about your daily life. A single word can be a powerful thing. It can be the ripple in the pond that changes everything. It can be sharp and biting or rich and soft and slow.
http://aliedwards.com/2012/12/one-little-word-2013.html

I have always wanted to participate but never did. Well this year, I choose my word -- CREATE!

My goals are to...

• Create a baby
• Create a new me by eating healthy and working out (signed up at a gym closer to home yesterday)
• Create new projects
• Create healthy meals at home
• Create cards and remember to mail them for my friends and family birthdays
• Create a cleaning schedule and stick to it

There's so much more that I want to "create" this year... but the word sums up my goals for this year!!

A re-cap of this past week:
My mom and I went and saw Cathy Rigby's Peter Pan last Friday. I've never been a big Peter Pan fan but I really enjoyed the play. The sets were magnificent, the cast was great and the flying and pixie dust were amazing.

We had a great new year and spent a low key evening with friends! I am sad the holiday's are over and it's back to the grind. The only fun part of diving into work in the new year is pulling out the new calendars. I got a cute little county weekly planner for work and I love it. Each week is a new country scene and it makes me dream about a simpler life.

And just for fun... I am really into hats lately and got this cute one for Christmas.

Happy New Year!!! I hope this year is AMAZING!!!



Christmas 2012

This year was not how I envisioned Christmas. Last year I thought we would have a little baby to focus on. But that dream did not become a reality. So, I came up with a new dream of being pregnant. The last few months we had not been able to try due to a cyst. After Thanksgiving we found out I was cyst free and we could try this month... a Christmas gift to us!

This month we tried our first ever double shot. I've lost track on how many IUIs we have done, but needless to say they did not work. Christmas was the big day we would find out. Christmas morning brought me the gift of my period. Needless to say I was devastated and am feeling hopeless. Thank goodness for my wonderful wife and family. I made the best of the day. I am still feeling depressed and not looking forward to going back to work, but my vacation is over and it did not result in a baby :(.

2013 I hope will bring happiness and a baby. We are hoping to try IVF this spring. Fingers crossed this year our dream will come true!

Hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas!!!

My next post will feature my beautiful ornament from the ornament swap.